camera phone portraits....

Bathroom Lighting Is Amazing Aint It!!!!!

in places i wander...ever so flawlessly

photo rights belong to: yuevonkah mauria & 15th king 

latest addition to my street art collect....in form of a portrait!

Long time coming, i actually shot this of my best friend..i always get really great shots of him on the train, that are like pictures of him profiling but he never really poses, he tends to be in his own little world and i get camera obsessed and end up taking like 7 pictures in like 4 clicks, then he's always like yuevvvvvvvvvvvv go away, and i just laugh....our relationship works that way, im the silly annoying one and hes the calm nerd...ahah

companies i aspire to work for

1) Topshop
2) Bloomingdales
3) Saks 5th
4) Barneys New York


in no priority order, id be honored if any of these companies took me. i am currently applying to be sales advisor for all but my career goals would definitely be working up to being a personal shopper under one of these companies, as i already have personal shopping experience on my own, i can have a bigger and better client base working for a larger company whom can expose me to a variety  of customers

july is going to rule

so by july im suppose to have.....no no no.....BY JULY I WILL HAVE!
A) MY OWN APARTMENT
B) TAKING MY 1 SUMMER COURSE THAT I WILL BE PAYING FOR
C) A Nice level SAVINGS ACCOUNT
D) A BETTER, MORE STABLE JOB, WITH A HIGHER LEVEL OF PROFESSIONALISM

argumentative motivation

i wake up this morning to an arugment that makes me angry yet motivates me. as you know i am consumed by materials. and my biggest critic as always is my mother, shes always on my back. so for the longest now i have stoped showing her my stuff because she is never quite happy for me. well this morning she decides to come into my room while my sleeping and look for a hat of mines, yet i turn over to her looking in my bags....yes i over react and start yelling for her to get out my room because now shes all in my shit....we inturn start aruging at the top of our lungs and exchanging mean words which is not anything new for my mother and i, cursing and all. i had planned to get my own apartment by june, but of course my greed for materials had blind sided me, and i had forgot all about saving and was constantly consuming again.....my accounts got maxed during christmas when the company i work for had tons of sales on items i had already wanted or either instantly wanted once i saw. needless to say i hadnt even got chance to redeem my accounts yet because hours at work suck horribly (fucking part-time is like the bottom of the food chain). yet i was still grabbing a few items here and there. i had gotten back into being comfortable at home, questioning why wud i leave and make myself pay for everything when i can just stay here and get everything paid for. but these arugments are the reason id leave and never look back unless i was dieing...and ive been swearing since i was 16 that i was gonna get outta here first chance i got. so yes i am totally furious this morning and cant even go back to sleep but i am going to let it motivate me to apply to these list of companies i had been wanting to apply to....anything to get outta here....i give myself 5 months and 4 days to get outta here. so by july i will be in my own apartment, where silence and no drama will dwell

stop dreaming within the lines

photoshoot idea inspiration

CLASSY LINGERE

A Wise Woman once said: if he is that easily gone he was nothing i was ment to have in the first place
(this wise woman was me)

why does this quote seem tons more relevant now then ever...

never make someone a priority, because to them you're probably just an option

UPDATE!

Probably gonna open a shop come february you can find it via this blog, facebook, lookbook.nu and ebay.... so stay tuned...

im used to waiting up for you.....but i now realize id be waiting for you forever...

materials they tend to own me.....

ive sworn off smoking ive sworn off sex all i have is my bottle and i guess i can consider myself blessed

everlasting kisses...in situations were i have nothing but nail polish on....you figure it out!

i dont try to be cool, i just do what i do, if its cool then great, if not, im okay with being awkward.....

guys arent stupid they are just incompetent!

guys cant wait for girls not to live up to the things they say, i said i wanted to wait to have sex, then everytime im getting frisky, he throws the wanting to wait in my face, so fine then, he'll wait and ill fuck someone else! LOL

i want the sex.....but the boys i sleep with....they bore me....it never feels enough, is it too much to ask for someone to be interesting, i just wanna feel equal....


xoxox i love SKINS! 

tall boys dont like me......so short boys it is...

i am no longer hypnotized by the silly way men act, the games they play....i guess i am now fully a woman, for the things i use to find ever so lovely...are now the things i realize are complete bullshit!

you are asking for emotions from me, i warn you are not ready for

he said he feels i will never open up....smh, guys be wanting you to crawl for em, so they cud feel the love....WELL NOT I SAID THE CAT!

in everyway you've always proven to be so different from other guys....but right now the way your acting all jerk like....is the sliver lining that proves your just like all the rest

In preparation for my birthday!

so this guy im dating and i are going to start doing yoga together because frankly i need to get into shape and also i need to tone my body and loose a little weight. (he doesnt think i should lose any weight). also i think i am going to go on a diet where im drinking a liter of water everyday and taking my vitamins and not eating anything too greasy, also, not eating too late and trying to get tons more sleep. there are woman my age older and even double my age whom are now skinner than i and im pretty damn skinny. i wanted to gain weight so bad when i was growing up because i was freakishly skinny, now i have like a little nice butt that i love, but it needs to be toned and with that butt came a pot belly. like my stomach no longer lays flat. you know those skinny girls that have a belly, thats exactly what i look like right now...fucking disgrace. my 28 year old sister has a better stacked body then i do....fuck outta hea! RECAP: so the water is to keep my skin clear and to keep my insides flushed, the viatmins are for my healthy and hair growth because im missing all the nutrition from my non fruit intake. yoga is for exercise and to help me tone and loose weight, and the diet is more about just eating right and eating heathier...all of this is in prepartion for my birthday and for a better life, for as i will learn good habits and keep on track with them!

FUCKING CLASSIC!

preview of my birthday dress

in this dress i will look like the spring baby....pale pink, frilly bottom,one shoulder corset top with flower detailing, i saw it and knew it was the one....it looks better on i promise, but you will only see that view come my born....which is still freaking 59 days away! lol

pieces of us

hes my bestfriend, and he makes me feel whole, he gets me like no one else does....kim and ron foreva!

a day in my life

since my photogapher bestfriend has come to town, i have been all about close ups.....lets get personal! lol

SHOPPING LIST!

I gladly want all of these shoes from forever 21 please and thank you!