tough times

i liked a man who completely represented everything i did not like in a man....i like him because he gave me attention and took me places. he could be sweet but was mainly a jerk, had plenty of girls and he like to flirt. was sorta funny looking and drank way too much. his penis wasnt even impressive, and he talked way too tough....so i dont know how i even like him....not even a little not even at all....

boredom makes me favor the wrong men....i seriously need hobbies...

and so im in like with a man whom is 5'5 and im 5'11.....but hes not a jerk, wants to take me places, gives me all the attention and deal with my attutide....

so everyones telling me not to be shallow...

contemplating drowning myself....

why cant i find a man whom has everything....not a jerk, tall, handsome, and can deal with a complex woman such like myself...4 things....

today i put back a dress that i know i would have KILLED IN.....but a sista gotta eat this week...

In my mommas shoes

VIEWS ON INTERNET EXPOSURE!

so today in media class we talked about everything being exposed and such....so i decided to goggle my name and alias and found wayyy to much information. comments ive made on websites, web programs i used to be apart of, it even has my address, information about the college i used to attend, my mother name and so on. like nothing is private at all. if i had a stalker, or something, or if someone was tryna find me to hurt me just off of a name they got, they could find so much just by using goggles search engine....im quite upset with this frankly. i feel exposed and like nothing is private at all. even web program profiles ive deleted still sorta exist via name search. not that ive done anything over the top or too far out that i wouldnt want no one to see, its just like when i curse or flirt via iInternet anyone can see (even if your profile is private) via google search. now when i search images i dont find me, which frankly is quite a relief because if people could search my name and see images of me that would make me feel quite endangered, even the fact that they can get information about me makes me feel endangered. and whats with these websites that have these props that allow people to pay for information about you. like how is all of this being allowed, its freaking ridiculous...

sincerely, YM!

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