argumentative motivation

i wake up this morning to an arugment that makes me angry yet motivates me. as you know i am consumed by materials. and my biggest critic as always is my mother, shes always on my back. so for the longest now i have stoped showing her my stuff because she is never quite happy for me. well this morning she decides to come into my room while my sleeping and look for a hat of mines, yet i turn over to her looking in my bags....yes i over react and start yelling for her to get out my room because now shes all in my shit....we inturn start aruging at the top of our lungs and exchanging mean words which is not anything new for my mother and i, cursing and all. i had planned to get my own apartment by june, but of course my greed for materials had blind sided me, and i had forgot all about saving and was constantly consuming again.....my accounts got maxed during christmas when the company i work for had tons of sales on items i had already wanted or either instantly wanted once i saw. needless to say i hadnt even got chance to redeem my accounts yet because hours at work suck horribly (fucking part-time is like the bottom of the food chain). yet i was still grabbing a few items here and there. i had gotten back into being comfortable at home, questioning why wud i leave and make myself pay for everything when i can just stay here and get everything paid for. but these arugments are the reason id leave and never look back unless i was dieing...and ive been swearing since i was 16 that i was gonna get outta here first chance i got. so yes i am totally furious this morning and cant even go back to sleep but i am going to let it motivate me to apply to these list of companies i had been wanting to apply to....anything to get outta here....i give myself 5 months and 4 days to get outta here. so by july i will be in my own apartment, where silence and no drama will dwell